allintimeisundone

i haven't been on livejounal in ages and i can't believe how much i've missed it.i'm doing a lot better now actually.i missed everyone and can't wait to be on again

peace&&love
"i could not forsee this thing happening to you"

i know i haven't been on in a while but there were numrous reasons.
school is ok.not the best but ok.
i still feel like shit but i guess there is no edge.

last wednesday i came really close to suicide.
i actually had the blade to my wrist and was starting to press down when i stopped.
and i know it will probably happen again.
i can feel it.
maybe next time i won't be such a fucking wuss.

peace and luv
"take me away from here"

looking ahead is hard to do when all you can see is your own death.

i'm amazed at the way i need you.
i really do think i need the pain.
i need it to feel good.
to feel content.
i mean it's not like i'm into s&m or anything.
i don't think at least.
but that is besides the point.
the point is that i think some people need to be damaged.
they need to be fucked-up and abnormal to feel at place.
i know i do.
i luv my damage.

its in my bloodline
crawling up my veins
leaving trails of little broken blood vessals
injecting liquid strain
and i can't reverse
my dain bramage

my summer art classes are going really great.i'm not so depressed.but i think i'm getting fatter.i feel like shit.i am so fucking week.

me go to michigan.wahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!